Missed~~

Lay awake in my bed that night,
I missed you.
I recalled the times we spent together,
I missed you.
I meditated on the memory of our times on the swing in the back yard,
I missed you.
Now, trying to make it through life without your guidance,
I miss you.
Now, trying to make it through each day without your patience,
I miss you.
Now, trying to make it through each hour without your wisdom,
I miss you.
Now, trying to make it through each minute without your kindness,
I miss you.
Now, trying to make it through each second without your love,
I miss you.

^o^

Did you ever miss someone before so much???

How was the feeling when missed someone???

sigh.... it's extremely suffer since i'm already step deeply...

Finally i realise,
realise tat wat i've done is nothing,
all are just negligible....
wat she done is only the precious,
she done everyting but i didn't noticed,
she sad alone,cry alone,sacrifice alone,
i didn't felt it,i didn't do anything...
she always said me done well,
but here i want to say... sorry,i didn't...
am i useless???

Because of the past,
u suffer alone,
i cant give u confidence,
but u didn't blame me...
u struggle alone,
i neither support nor console u,
summore i always make u feel dissapointed...
because of my past u can sacrifice,
but i didn't sacrifce anything for u,
am i selfish????

1st time bought u a present,
but before get the present,
make u dissapointed for several times again,
let u feel tat im not sincere...sorry~
finally i realize it,
pass the present for u by myself,
but do u really feel happy???
i don't know....

Times past rapidly...
The time for us is getting short n short,
wat will happen next???
it's unpredictable...
Will i promise anything to u???
I dare not... don't hv the courage...
i can't warranty the promise...
I don't want to break any promise and then hurt u...
I just want u to trust me.... CONFIDENCE~tat's all~~

~~~Happy Always~~~ ^o^

Motorace duty~~

okay.... last saturday i was going to a large events which is motoracing at stadium Batu Kawan.... that's pretty great experience for me cause the first time i can see the live.... But it seems not as good as my expectation cause just only watch the riders compete with each other by repeating the circuit... quite bored actually... watch+duty under the sun... somemore heard the bike exhaust sound.... feel not very well... pek chek~~~ Also, watch the riders speed until don't know who is the first.... swt~~ worse than watching tv..... XD




For the duty.... felt sad also... im the ambulance driver during the duty... scolded by the marshal there.... shit~~~ lousy systems they are using.... different marshal gave the different instruction when there was a rider fall down from the bike.... I follow all their instruction but eventually scolded by more people.... what the heck~~ making mistake because of the shit instruction... somemore scold me rudely.... 1 of the marshal who is giving me the wrong instruction still dare to scold me loudly and rudely.... celaka~~~ early in the morning, first case happened... already break down my mood ... totally don't have the mood to continue already....after that i didn't follow their order totally.... thought their order as "dog bark".... don't bother about them.... over the time like that... easy easy done~~~

Truth~~~

Truth~~
never a lies

Truth~~
are always cruel and make us dissapointed

Truth~~
always make somebody being hurt

Truth~~
can make us have a clear view through to the reality world and people
it's undenieable.....

Truth~~
make us suprised and unexpected

Sometimes i rather escape from the truth than knowing it.... Also, keep the truth from others know it... But, will it be hidden forever??? do me feel well for keeping the truth??? telling out.... finally will be hurt~~~~ the consequence will be unacceptable for me.... but atleast feeling will be getting well....

每一首歌带给我的意义。。。。

每一首歌都带给了我不一样的感觉。。。 正能表达我心里的一切感受。。。 一些歌也却能准确的表达出我从以前到现在的感觉。。。

之前~~~~

痴心绝对

为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解，我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切。。。

你又狠狠逼退，我的防备。。。 静静关上门来默数我的泪。。。

曾经我以为我自己会后悔，不想爱得太多痴心绝对。。。 为你落第以滴泪，为你做任何改变，也唤不回你对我的坚决。。。 =(

不懂

雨都停了，天都亮了，我们还不懂。。。 这爱情路究竟带我们到什么地方。。。

是要持续仍旧珍惜，还是回到原地。。。如今此刻的我的确是有一点疲倦。。。=(

记得

我们都累了，却没办法往回走。。。 两颗心都被迷惑，怎么说，怎么说都没有救。。。

两个相爱的人，等对方先说找分开的理由。。。 谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候，我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空。。。 走的太远终于走到分岔的路口。。。 是不是你和我要有两个相反的梦。。。 =(

心如刀割

我是真的为你哭了，你是真的随他走了。。。 就在这一刻全世界伤心角色，又多了我一个。。。 我是真的为你爱了，你是真的跟他走了。。。 能给的我全都给了，我都舍得，除了让你知道~~~我心如刀割。。。=(

如果你还爱我

如果你还爱我，你不会对我如此的冷漠。。。又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊。。。 如果你还爱我，你不会对我如此的冷漠。。。我只能含这眼泪默默的离开。。。=(

退后

我知道你我都没有错，只是忘了怎么退后。。。 信誓旦旦给的承诺，全被时间扑了空。。。 我知道我们都没有错，只是放手会比较好过。。。 最美的爱情回忆里带去。。。

现在~~~~

What makes a man

Tell me what makes a man, wanna give you all his heart.... smile when you're around and cry when you're apart... If you know what makes a man, wanna love you the way i do... Girl you gotta let me know, so i can get over you!!!!!!

偷偷喜欢你

我只能偷偷喜欢你，我只希望能梦见你，我想要对着手机，告诉你～～ 好想你！！

我只能偷偷喜欢你，我只希望做你唯一，如果你需要人陪，我陪你。。。 好期待能和你开心一起。。。。=D

无条件为你

无条件为你不顾明天的安稳，为你变坚强，相信你的眼神。。。不敢想，不敢问。。。 有一天坏的可能。。。 无条件为你放弃单独的旅程，为你坚强，就不怕牺牲。。。 我的灵魂如此沸腾~~~为我爱的人。。。

Enjoyable and crazy days~~~

Yesterday i went to tukun with woei kuang, chek kee and chun yong for a PBSM event that is Mock War.... It was raining on the morning when we are going there.... We run ourselves initially and we feel bored with it cause our team just have our 4 people... so eventually we join together with f5 gang... When we reach a station which was a pool and i pushed by a unknown people with you en into the pool ( don't know who was pushing me)... once i fall down into the pool, i accidentally injured my toe and knee... Walao, early in the morning already injured.... hehe... but i don mind.... still continue to enjoy... =D

After we run for a while, we stop at a station and start to stay at the station to play game with the participant for the whole day.... there was considerable of funny and crazy action we had act at there... There was also has a pool so we play water over there.... The only 1 thing i keksim is everyone taking revenge on me... =.=... i had been pushed by many people into the pool for many times... keksim!!!! haha.... But it's extremely enjoyed.... XD.... Also, kah hui ki siao too... haha~~~ take lots of photo wf her and her self-capturing....XD... " yang guang" finally back... wahkakakzzz.... =D

Here are some photo to show how enjoy we are.... wahkakazzz... XD

BBQ nitezz~~~

Yesterday we have a BBQ party at ye seong house... That was an enjoyable nitez and very fun.... We all have fun together and after that over night at his house... really enjoy it... =D

Wonderful Day~~~ =D

Today was a wonderful and happy day for me.... hehe!!!!! I go for SKATING which was my first time with chee keong,yipehn,chek kee and poh sze.... haha!!!!

I have a little bit afraid when we enter the skate area because i totally don't know how to skate... hehe~~ I fall down many times and walk like a robot... XD

I spend about 30 minutes... finally i'm able to skate.... wakakazzz... the feeling was fun...!!!!! But i still cant play smooth and well so i'd been crash by people and fall down.... but the feeling is fun too~~ hehe!!!! luckily i din hurt my back... lol....

there were some interesting in skating too... that is can saw many "leng lui"... hiak hiak!!!! =D they can suddenly come and crash u or touch u anytime.... muahaha!!!! one case that i won't forget is a girl fall down, then she crash chek kee.... do u know how she wake up??? she hold chek kee leg to help her to wake up... and the next... do u know what happen??? She then fly to my way and hug me..... SHIT~~~ haha!!!! maybe she lost balance.... XD

We play until about 3 hours.... then our leg feel hurt so we don't want to continue already.... over that few hours, i can start to skate smoothly and seldom fall down already.... But still have to fall down cause by crashed by others...=.=.... but nvm... it's fun....XD.... so miss it when i'm back.... hope wil have the chance to skate again.... =D

After going to queensbay, we go to having a wonderful dinner which was recommended by poh sze.... Go to eat western food.... really nice with good enviroment.... thanks to poh sze for bringing us to have such a nice dinner.... =D

Great 3xperience~~~

Yesterday i go for the BSMM disaster training... It was a air crash training in preparing for the disaster which will be happen anytime without our expectation...

The training was run at penang airport.... It's great excited when about 3 ambulance and 3 ford ranger from our BSM ON the siren and "fly" together to the airport... All the people on the street stop beside and saw us "fly"... the feeling is really great... ^^

Reach the airport... first responder to the crash area and rescue all the casualty to the ADU (centre)... There were about 30 of ambulance+bomba+ford ranger attend the training... Really enjoy the process....

First time have the opportunity to round the plane landing area~~~

First time can saw the plane landing in short distance~~~

First time can approach the real huge aeroplane and stand under the plane~~~

All of my first time experiences are totally great for me.... enjoy the night view and the cold wind.... That was at the time about 2am....